“I wanted to be loved.”
Michael battled depression after losing both his mother, Lesley Angold, and his lover, Anselmo Feleppa, within a few years of each other. Feleppa died from an AIDS-related illness. “I struggled with huge depression after my mother died,” he told The Independent. “Losing your mother and your lover in the space of three years is a tough one.”
In a 2005 interview with The Guardian, Michael opened up about the “12 years of depression and fear and lots of other s—” that followed his devastating losses. Said the star: “In terms of coming close to saying I don’t want to live, that would have been after my mum died. I had this overwhelming feeling that the best was behind me. I so loved my mum, and respected her. I swear to God, it was like I had a curse on me. I couldn’t believe how much God was piling on at once. There was so much death around me, I can’t tell you.
“Throughout the years, George experimented with drugs, and he did like to party, but I never saw him do it in public. His personal demons were done in private. He wasn’t one of these artists that doesn’t care about you and doesn’t care about the other people in the room… whatever was his burden, he did it in private. He did it away from people. He didn’t want to put it on them.”
George Michael’s longtime friend and Sirius XM DJ Richard Blade
He admitted to the publication that he was smoking crack cocaine at the time of his 2008 arrest, in which he was charged with drug possession.
Posted on December 27, 2016 at 2:55pm EST
In America, we still view addicts as the other: those on the streets huddled in alleyways or doorways, unkempt, uncouth, possibly dangerous. We walk around them, averting our eyes. Or we follow their antics on TMZ— Paris Hilton and Charlie Sheen, the brunt of jokes about their attempts at recovery followed by relapse. [Cory] Monteith was a fresh faced, clean-cut heartthrob. When he died, a radio interviewer called and asked me to explain what happened. He was so normal even in his drug addiction, a condition he shared with 23 million Americans.
… but by whitewashing addiction, the producers are failing its audience of young people, the group most vulnerable to overdose. A tribute replete with sad songs will make the audience cry, but it could also wind up romanticizing the star’s death. So while … fans grieve the loss of their idol, it won’t help them to understand why they would never want to be like him. This is a disease that needs to be shown with such ugliness that even a face as beautiful as Monteith’s will make the millions of young people who watch the show recoil in horror.
By David Sheff
The antidote is the understanding that we are all at one with our infinite divine source. That gives us all the joy and peace we could possibly want. But I think society still hasn’t grasped these ideas widely enough. In the long term, and even the short term, individuals who have been healed of using drugs have had a deeper insight into who they are. These people were able to give up drugs through the realization at some level that they were not separate and alone, that God was with them and loved them. I’m not sure they would put it in those terms, although some do. But I think a sense of being loved really does make the difference.
“The First Drug Czar Speaks”
with contributions from Egil “Bud” Krogh
(Drug Spokesperson under Nixon Administration)
From the October 2002 issue of The Christian Science Journal
Video – George Michael, Elton John – Don’t Let The Sun Go Down On Me (Live) – R.I.P – George Michael is a well loved man who will be dearly missed as he fought to overcome his personal demons. Peace and love to his family, friends and fans. Gone to soon.
George Michael’s secret acts of extraordinary generosity revealed after his death – they’re bringing fans to tears
People are now sharing the stories he humbly asked them to keep quiet
Nicola Oakley – mirror.co.uk
Updated 16:33, 27 DEC 2016
Fans of singer and 80s pop icon George Michael woke to the devastating news this morning that he has died over the Christmas period – and are now sharing his extraordinary stories.
The star’s publicist made a statement at 11pm on Christmas Day, revealing that he had passed away “peacefully at home” aged just 53.
1. Anonymously donated £15k for a woman’s IVF treatment
Among them was the incredible tale from Pointless presenter Richard Osman that the star had anonymously donated £15,000 to a woman who couldn’t afford IVF.
2. Donated £25k to a stranger in debt
Replying to Richard Osman’s story, one person said George Michael had once been seen in a cafe helping out a stranger who was crying because she was in debt.
Not wanting her to know he was helping, he gave the waitress a cheque for £25,000 to give to her after he left.
3. Secretly volunteered at homeless shelter
It has also emerged that George Michael was anonymously volunteering at a homeless shelter, and had asked other volunteers to keep it a secret.
One revealed it after his death to show what a true philanthropist the man was.
4. Anonymously donated millions to Childline
Childline’s founder and president Dame Esther Rantzen told the Press Association: “For years now he has been the most extraordinarily generous philanthropist, giving money to Childline, but he was determined not to make his generosity public so no-one outside the charity knew how much he gave to the nation’s most vulnerable children.
5. Kept small charities afloat
One woman tweeted to say she had once spoken to someone from a charity who said they were “only afloat” because of George Michael.
6. Supported NHS nurses
In 2006, George held a special free concert for NHS nurses to attend in north London.
He announced he would be hosting the event as a special thank you to the nurses who had cared for his late mother.
At the time, nurses who attended spoke to the BBC about how it made them feel.
Susan Steadman said: “He made all of us feel special. People do say thank you, but for George to say it publicly feels good.”
Ranjani Kendrick said: “I had the time of my life. It was such a vibrant atmosphere. I thank George Michael for making us feel appreciated.
“We all were so touched by the comments he made. I am glad the work we do has not gone unnoticed.”
He’s since given free seats away to NHS nurses at other concerts.
7. Tipped barmaid £5k
Writer Sali Hughes revealed today that the anonymous celebrity she talked about in one of her pieces was actually George Michael.
She revealed how he had tipped a barmaid £5,000 because she was a student nurse and she was in debt.
8. Sent hundreds of kids to Lapland
After reading this article, Sue Clark from Sunderland got in touch to tell Mirror Online how George Michael paid for her to go to Lapland with her family 20 years ago.
He also reportedly paid for hundreds of other children to go on the trip.
Sue told Mirror Online: “He didn’t want anyone to know or any publicity. An extremely kind man.
“Thanks, George, for the wonderful memories of Lapland. You will be remembered for your kindness and thoughtfulness as well as your music.”
9. Donated his royalties
George Michael donated all the royalties from his 1996 number one single Jesus To a Child to charity.
He performed on Band Aid’s Do They Know It’s Christmas.
Michael also donated the royalties from Last Christmas/Everything She Wants to Ethiopian famine relief, and proceeds from Don’t Let the Sun Go Down On Me went to Aids hospice London Lighthouse and the Rainbow Trust children’s charity.
10. Saved John Lennon’s piano
In the year 2000, George Michael bought John Lennon’s piano – on which he composed ‘Imagine’ – for £1.45million from a private collector, vowing to keep it in the UK.
He then donated it to the Beatles Story museum in Liverpool so that it could be kept in Lennon’s hometown forever.
Fans are marvelling at how he kept all of these acts of kindness quiet during his lifetime.
Some are being brought to tears, while others are expressing that it’s a mark of the man he was.